everything is going okay

Yay! More word from you! Gods I cannot tell you how much I miss you right now. I think that if I saw you and was able to get a huge ass hug from you right now tht everything would be ok for me again and nothing would be too complicated for me to handle. Ya know? I am still trying to figure out how I get myself into these situations like I am in now... And why the hell do I allow myself to fall so much and care so much for so many people? Granted it isn't THAT many... but still... My heart is going to end up tearing itself into pieces because of how much I put out of it to certain others in my life right now... I guess you can say my looking glass thing is rebuilding itself with all sorts of holes and cracks in it... so it isn't even a proper one at that. And as you know from reading past lj entries of mine... I don't want a looking glass in my life anymore damn it all! *sigh* All it does is seperate my inner self and true self from the outer mask and the part of me that people see on the outside.... *growls* Anywho... I shall talk to you later I guess. Call me or something sometime. My cellie is on at all times now, since I have finally updated it. Lol... The number is (253)797-1637. Call anytime. I am always here. :) Love ya sis, and I cannot tell you how much I miss you!

I used to visualize my hert as a bowl. There seemed to be years that it was broken so badly that no matter how fast I went I couldn't keep the good stuff in, it would just drain away. Then I figure out I had to take some time to fix the bowl and it actually became stronger in the broken places and now I can hold the goodness, most of the time. If that makes anysense at all.

I am so glad that things are going well mon ami..

~hugs~

I, too, am glad things are going well. I can say from experience that the first step onto the bus or into a real school is the beginning of the walk away. It takes years but it starts with that first step. After watching some of my friends and their kids the same age as mine I have come to believe that you are doing a great job if the child has the skills and strength to move away from you at the proper time. Of course no one seems to have an answer about how Mum handles that do they. Continue being well.